Secret Garden

2010-03-17T14:51:00.003+08:00

We Love Ben & Jerry's!! *dontcha?*

Free Cone Day, is Ben & Jerry’s fun-tastic way of saying thank you to the millions of ice cream lovers around the world. In the spirit of this moovellous kind day, I too would like to say my thanks to the ever sweetest dearies, 5 girls & 1 guy (they know who they are) , for being part of my life (and sharing the sweet Ben & Jerry's moments) . Everybody, there can’t never be too much appreciation, so say your thanks and see you at Ben & Jerry's on 23 March 2010!

P.S Life is sweet, but who will complain if it is sweeter with Ben & Jerry's?

2009-11-20T15:21:00.000+08:00

Someone new came into my life...

2009-05-16T04:08:00.002+08:00

4am and pretty much don't feel like sleeping... Because I am disgusted with myself.

Been thinking alot of late.

I never seemed to carry out the things that I say. I do not like it, but I still do it.
Am I really so stubborn? ( YES I am)

Lately I have resorted to using materials to satisfy my emotional needs. Just thinking of things to buy all the time. Totally unhealthy.

I really need to get myself occupied with something, someone.
BUT I have my mind on someone who doesn't even bother about me. Its really annoying!
And I swear I HATE it.

And this makes me hate myself. Even more!

I hate the me now.
I hate the me who do not stand up for myself.
Always letting others bully.
Where is your pride?
You have totally lost it.
Disgusting.

2009-04-07T01:38:00.003+08:00

It has been 4 months since I last updated... If there are any frequent visitors, Surprise SURPRISE!
If there aren't, well this is just to past some time for me...

Many things happened then past few months... The happy moments and definitely the sad and perhaps angry ones.

Some things just kept me thinking.

Number 1:
I am not as young as a subconsciously think I am. Why?
People around me are thinking of marriage! For goodness sake, I don't even have a steady bf!
And I am still thinking of adding new members for my LV family... Gosh!
Which makes me question, when is the time you think you are ready for marriage?
How much money should you have to be financially comfortable for marriage?
Oh man! Its a scary thought to the young me.... And I don't even wanna probe further into working out the finances... Moreover, I DO NOT HAVE A BF! Not steady not considered.

Number 2:
Why must I tolerate insensitive, non-empathising men who doesn't seem to understand me?
My work already requires me to be very tolerant and maintain good composure always. I don't think I will be able to withstand further undesired behaviour after work hours.

Bottomline, Men: Please be more sensitive. Sometimes girls just wanna complain. We don't need solutions or any sarcastic remarks that will not make us feel any better.
Or maybe I shouldn't stereotype and say girls generally.... Maybe its just me! HAHA!

Number 3:
Life is really weird, isn't it?
It seems like its all the wrong people doing the right things at the right time and the right people doing the wrong things ALL THE TIME.
As for the above comment, I shall not explain further.

Random updates:
I told my brother just now that I wanna go on a holiday-Hongkong.
He said, "What?? Not again? You haven't been to Taiwan, go Taiwan lar!"
But I wanna go Ocean Park!!
I really wanna go Ocean Park, and Macau!! Even if everyone tells me there is nothing in Macau.

Shopaholic updates:
I bought myself a Palermo GM. Probably getting a Neverfull Damier MM. Wants to get a Joey wallet.
I am a LV fan.

My hatch-day is coming. I am not hinting, I am ANNOUNCING!!
21 April
HAHA~

Thanks for wasting your time reading my nonsense!
CIAO~

2008-12-25T23:05:00.004+08:00

Merry Xmas~!!

Its been a long time since I wrote something here.. Well, I am still very much alive!

I've survived Standard Chartered Half marathon...

I went for my long awaited eye surgery....

And say no more to specs and contacts on Geokie's b-day!

How wonderful life is.... And it will just get better...

2008-10-11T20:23:00.002+08:00

I am still alive!!!

Been really busy... Busy merry making.... Wahahaahahaaa!! Nah... Busy working...

Alas, I am still alive.... GTG!

2008-09-23T17:43:00.001+08:00

I'm so touched, I feel like crying....

Thanks for everything...
Thanks for all the blessings...

2008-09-22T11:46:00.001+08:00

Happy is an understatement for what I am feeling now....

I am flying~!!!!

=D

2008-09-04T12:54:00.006+08:00

Can you imagine?

It was a tiring day. You were caught in the rain, feeling cold and hungry... Wondered aimlessly and probably browsed the entire bookstore...
And what welcomes you was "Next time reach give me a call or sms. Don't waste my time like this."

Didn't she wasted her time too?
Didn't she felt frustrated too?

She don't know what kind of feeling came to her when she heard that, but she was appalled that she could just let it go and walk on as per normal.

What the hell has gotten into her. This is NOT what Jasmin Kee Li Ting will ever do. Not standing up for herself, and let herself get penalized for communication break down. She feel so wronged and yet did nothing about it.

"What has gotten into me?" This was what was in her mind for the rest of the night.
She need to search for her soul. She has to be what she used to be.

Can you feel her?
Its love and hate all at the same time.

*****

Something to remember from Mel's Bday

Snippets of Nike Run...

2008-08-19T14:14:00.000+08:00

Something that laine shared with us...

Since there's no help, come let us kiss and part; (or maybe not)
or kiss anyway, let's start with that, with the kissing part,
because it's better than the parting part, isn't it --
we're good at kissing, we like how that part goes

-- kim addonizio

2008-08-15T01:59:00.004+08:00

You Just Wanna Get Drunk When You Have Insomnia

Yes, I just wanna get drunk badly... Seriously...

I must just say, Fiona and I just contrast out very well...
Well, She is dark and I am Fair...
And Mel is super good in cutting Berd out of the picture...

I really wanna question this picture.... Is the person in the middle me???? Cos I really cannot recognise myself....

Lovie~!!

2008-08-12T01:34:00.007+08:00

Its SATC(second run-time) and tea sipping time.... and come to think of it, its been a long time I have blogged...

P.S I am getting my first ever wedding BOMB!! Congrats Paul!

Some photos from our National Day Dinner at laine's

Love you babes. Although it was a really Humble dinner, I really do enjoy the company. Although I lost money during Mahjong, I look forward to the next time we play it again.
Thanks for everything!

I love the really cute mini Magnum. Haha!

I am addicted to Yoga. My entire body is aching from Hot C and I am loving it!

Its cool to see that one can actually open a bottle of chilli sauce with so much delight. Woots!

This is the Mini magnum I am talking about... Doesn't look very mini here but the moment I got it out of its wrapper, I just couldnt help but exclaimed "Its so CUTE!"

This pic is to show SH that she missed out the Mini Magnum fun!!
Mini Magnum RAWKS!

National Day Dinner Success~!! MUah!

2008-08-02T17:44:00.003+08:00

Hi!! Its just a random post just to show that I am still alive...

My life have been pretty "excitement-less"... No pictures, nothing to talk about...

Crabbing at Mellben ytd...

Durians and Mangosteens... Bought Durians and end up not paying for the Mangosteens we picked... We are scammers!!

Crabbing at Jumbo seafood ages ago...

Aiya.. nothing to talk about la...

Oh this is Fish and co.
Nothing much also.. Haha~!!

2008-07-15T02:38:00.003+08:00

Been lazy to blog.... Maybe just plain lazy to do anything.... Nothing much happened.... Everyday is home-bound and I kinda love it...

My favourite pastime now is to sleep, watch SATC, and sleep... No mood to shop even when I step onto Orchard road....

One more thing... I swear by Brazillian wax! As I said, everyone should go do it!

And I love my girls!!

Anyway, I Heart Mr B!!

2008-07-07T15:51:00.042+08:00

Hi People!!! I am back from Shanghai!!

What can I say? Its was hell of a fun trip!!

Loads of screw-ups making this vacation more challenging and exciting than it is suppose to be!

Day 1: I landed on Hong Qiao Airport rather than Pudong Int'l airport... Not being able to meet lainey... Gotta make expensive overseas call to link up with lainey... Her not able to get me on my phone when she reach the meeting place... and she ended up asking the information counter to report my name just like how mothers find their lost kids!!

But its ok, we survived day 1 =)

Thanks Agnes for sending me off.. =D

Day 2: we miss our train to HK!

Other than being emotional and crying, we refunded our tix, bought a standing tix to Guangzhou so that we can go HK from Guangzhou

Day 2-3: sitting on the train for 24 hrs.. I visited the toilet once only... Talked to China-men... Offering our stools to seat-less china-men... People feeling grateful...

Played no-brainer games like Bingo! and who-writes-faster-with-the-left-hand... Who writes faster with the left hand "my boyfriend is cuter than yours" has the cuter boyfriend... Oh yeah... I lost... but it doesn't mean my boyfriend is not cute! I swear!

I developed economy-class-syndrome by the time we reached Guangzhou, Yes! Swollen feet, feet as big is pigs trotters. And missing somebody awfully (i remembered)

Took a 2 hour train ride from Guangzhou... Basically its a long journey with flattened butts! (mine is somewhat still perky as ever after!! LOL)

I am glad that I have Laine with me.. Loves!!

A toilet bowl seat from Carrefour...

Beginning of our 24 hr train ride....

Beautiful Greens

When boredom calls...

Yeah!! Pig trotters for sale!!!

Finally, Hello HK!!!

And our Brunch at the ever-so-popular Yung Kee restaurant...

To me their food is Mediocre... and Expensive!

Our all-time favourites from Xu Liu Shan.. Yummy!

I just love HK to bits and pieces!!!

Food at road side stall taste fabulous!!

Yummy Chicken wings!

Dun you just love HK for all these Cutie stuff????

And I finally found a strawberry mouse-pad!

And Yum-Cha every morning!! I can't stop exclaiming how much I love HK!

And to Shanzhen.... Cheapo stuff!!! Pickpockets... still I enjoyed ShenZhen...

Yum-Cha... Love Love Love!!

On our luxurious train back to Shanghai!!

There with one luggage and back with 2! Lovie~!!

And we finally get to enjoy our expensive train ride... From Hk to Shanghai.... WootX!

Here we are back to Shanghai!!

Oh yes!! Cook dinner for ourselves... Veggies... Cook veggies!!! cos we have too much meat!! Veggies!!! We want Veggies!!

In an underground tunnel that makes you look sooooooo Muchhhh Talllerrrrr!!! Oh yeah!!

We love to cook for ourselves... Or at least I love to cook for lainey!!

First ever that you'll ever see such a beautiful Shanghai...

Just see for yourself...

Day Last: flight got delayed 1 hr.... Irritated....

Verdict: Hell of a fun, and loads of great experiences.... Good or bad are considered GREAT experiences... =D

But still, My greatest love is Singapore!!!

P.S. more like i miss the people in Singapore... I really miss them!!

2008-06-23T02:18:00.009+08:00

I am off to Shanghai~!!!! Will be back on 4th July!!!!

Tata~!! Miss Me!! Lainey here I come~!!!

Below are some updates for the past week... Pictures only... =D

Sentosa 20062108

Cam-Whoring and St Jame's-ing 20062008

2008-06-13T03:53:00.005+08:00

I saw the doctor.... Cos of bad stomach-churning especially after meals, bloaty-ness, diarrhea....

He said all that I am suffering is anxiety-induced... STRESS!!

How can I be stressed now?? Unless you consider some hearty-factors...

If there is really anxiety, its must be accumulated from the past one month of exams...

If there is stress now, it could only be one thing on my mind- How to have more fun?

Maybe I am really stressed unknowingly...

LOL!!

2008-06-12T21:49:00.008+08:00

Our weekly event on a Wednesday Night...

I cannot understand why there is NEVER a dull moment with these girls... Will someone just enlighten me?

Dinner at Darryl's Place...

Darryl, the host
Paul, the wine guy

Yisheng, the hotplate-lover

Melvin, the Vampire & Mandy, the babe

Us... Digging in...

This the the Wow-ful stun Melvin can perform

Aiya... I am very tired.... Good night...

2008-06-07T19:01:00.013+08:00

Its a Girl-Thang~!! And Girls just wanna have fun...

Other than fun and more fun, what else would you expect for a girlie day?

Cam-whoring everywhere and anywhere you like... Laughing at our own stupid jokes... Laughing at our own stupid actions... Spreading the laughter to everyone... Laugh Laugh Laugh!

Strip... Not painful at all... Dear Fiona agrees too!! (ouch factor: 1/5)
Clear the forest.
Baring you skin, making you feel sexier and enhancing your sex life... (lol!)

Yes! say bye-bye to the forest that has been bothering you since puberty... Say hi to the clear skies and smooth skin...

Say Yes! to deforestation!!

Thats the hot was that was supposed to be slathered on the "forest"...

Sex and the City...
I love the show and the company of the girlies... Its a perfect show to watch with the girlies... make you cry and laugh all at the same time...

I love Samantha Jones and Botox!!! Sex keeps you looking young!! Hahaha!!

And More More More of these...

I miss dragonfly!!
I wanna hear my favourite Barbie doll sing my favourite song!!

Counting down: 16 days to shanghai!!

2008-06-04T01:39:00.003+08:00

YeeeeHaaaaa~!!!

Exams are OVER, finally!!!!

No more Expo...

No more of the unglam-ness as follows:

But more Happy faces!!!

Happy faces of my study lovies... You just canot imagine how happy we were once they said "pens down"!!!

Say Bye Bye to Expo days... And hello to endless delights!!

I have a list of post exam activities... And I cant wait for my Shanghai trip!!

Post Exam Activities

4 June: Mambo Jumbo @ Zouk

5 June: Wala Wala @ Holland V

6 June: Brazillian Waxing, Sex and the City Movie screening, Party at Darryl's residence

9 June: A day with Study-lovies

11 June: Mambo Jumbo @ Zouk again

18 June: Mambo Jumbo Yet again

21 June: Night cycling

23 June-4 July: Shanghai, Hk, Macau, Shenzhen

25 Sept-29 Sept: Bangkok

*Free dates in between will be updated again*

2008-06-01T00:35:00.011+08:00

Guess who is this!!

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He is non-other than our Friendly Seetoh (below)!!
Degree of look-alike: 20%
Verdict: Professional photography is really professional!

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Just like what Seetoh said, its another "frigging energy nullifying" night at AMK Garden Mac...

I really think this break in between the exams is just too long... I am really losing the momentum... I just wanna get over it as soon as possible...

Just can't wait for exams to be over... If it drags any longer, you might just see this blog being abandoned simply because I could have been admitted to Mental hospital...

Tak-glam moments... Gold-digging! Please don't magnify this pic to see if there is any nose hair peeking out of my nose!! Wahahaahahaaa~!!!
Fiona and our Golden energy in a can...

I seriously can't remember when and why I could have laughed so happily...

Mummy, I WANNA GO HOME~!!! *POUT*

If eating these notes up can allow me to have the information in my brain, I am more than willing to do so... The most, I could use the Golden energy to lubricate my throat...

Screeeeeeaaaaaaaaaam~!!
My favourite... Making myself look DARN ugly... My logic: There is no way that you can make yourself look pretty during the study period, so do the opposite. Make yourself look Freaking Ugly... It can really make an impact!!

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Our way of relaxing is SWIMMING!! Dun get me wrong, we really did study!! We studied and swam and studied after...

Our days is just very long... we spent about 20 hours awake, sleeping at about 7 am and waking up at 12 noon EVERYDAY!! Studying really bonded us, and I mean it...

And the only thing I can say is, I LOVE FIONA'S HOUSE!!

And my zi pai skill is super bad!! I need more practice!!

From all the studying till 6 am, my face becomes by default: Tired.

And I sure love to make myself look ugly!!!

Another ScreeeeeeaaaaaaaaM!!!

2 more days of studying
3 more days to Mambo!!!

Just can't wait!! *I already have a list of post-exams activities!!*

2008-05-30T06:52:00.007+08:00

Its been studying for the past one week and being super no life!!most of the time, the day ends at 6am and by that time we are all zonked out... Just like walking zombies...

So every other thing feels exceptionally interesting other than textbooks and study guides... Its rare that I read all the articles in the magazine ( I hardly do that). And its amazing that I could remember the detail in the magazine very well * It will be great if I can remember what I study that well!!*

Some random stuffs over the week...

Embrace the tranquility of the waters... My feet peeks out and wanting to say hi to the world!!!

Trying to artistic... Fiona's condo with the grey clouds... I think it the effect will be better if it's sunny...

Like everyone knows I can be a sleepaholic if I want to... I can sleep anywhere whenever I feel tired...Sometimes this tiredness is really uncontrollable... *aiya you will not understand if you are not a women* So somebody was actually sweet enough to deliver me Chicken's essence...

But one thing I cannot deny... Chicken's essence really works for me but, however, when the effect goes away... I'll get more tired and zonked out than ever... ( just like redbulls )

Thanks for that little indulgence of Chicken's essence! =))

So that's my life-saving chicken essence amongst all my books!!

*SLURP!!*

And I spilled some of the essence on my study guide!! I think I was just very lame... But the effort to write "chicken essence" and to take a pic of the spillage managed to make Fiona laugh! I think we are just easily amused...

And one fine day, we decided to keep fit and RUN!!!

So, we ran around the estate.. and landed ourselves at Crazy Angmoh which sells western food in hawker centre.... ( its pretty similar to Botak Jones) According to Fiona, Crazy Angmoh is better than Botak Jones... I can't judge cos I have never tried Botak Jones before... =(

I think we are looking like idiots while trying to pose "enthusiastically shocked" upon the arrival of the food... But still it was hilarious...

And the bill added up to a mere $19.30. Not too expensive... Very good!! Will eat at Crazy Angmoh SOON!!

4 more days to end of exams
5 more days to Mambo!!!

2008-05-15T01:14:00.005+08:00

Now in my mind there is only
ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME!!!

*getting a little crazy*
fyi. ME stands for Managerial Economics

And in the midst of breaking out in cold sweat and panic-ing about the paper that I didn't manage to clear last year... I actually felt some sweetness in the air... Awwww...

This bitter-sweet feeling has its unique yet subtle way of healing.

Something is sometimes there but many times not and maybe not. This ambiguity challenges the mind and create a certain sense of desire... A desire to accomplish and excel.

Oh... Feels like I'm in love with... Something... AMBIGUITY.
And an ambiguous familiar stranger?

Hope I clear the paper this time round.

It's Coming! It's Coming!!!

2008-05-13T00:35:00.003+08:00

Don't know why I am having a headache and feeling nausea just before my first paper....

It seems like this nausea syndrome will come during exam period... It always happens during exams!!

I really feel vomit-ish.... No No No, I'm not preggie.. Try Harder... Definitely not!! Indigestion maybe...

And I can't sleep....

Dang~!!!!

So I played with the camera... Nothing nice to capture in the little mess of mine... Only one thing I find interesting when I first stepped into my room....

The work of my mum when she tidied my bed....

Sly holding on to my Favourite Vibrating STRAWBERRY!!! (Dun ask me why it vibrates, cos duh~!!! ITS A MASSAGE CUSHIE with vibrating device, which I deactivated it by not putting batteries inside... Stop thinking dirty!!!)

I didn't know sly loves strawberries too!!! Wahahahahaahahahaaaaa~!!! Sweet!

Haha!! I really have an impulse to turn my room into a strawberry land after seeing this!!!

Strawberry Strawberry Strawberry Sweet Sweet Sweet!!

And this Apple tree is A gift from Yisheng... Apparently it brings luck... And Yisheng suggested me to bring one of the apples (which can be detached) with me to the exams... For good luck... Hmmmmm... I will do so... But I am afraid I will break the fragile apple...

Anyway, All The Best to all those having exams like me!!!

P.S. I Love Strawberry!!!

2008-05-11T01:42:00.001+08:00

Happy Mothers' Day
to all the MaMas In the world!!

MaMa is the Best!!! I love my MaMa!!!

2008-05-08T02:56:00.003+08:00

Out of stress, fatigue, boredom.....

I really wanna give you a wet smooch.. Just like this!!

MuaCKS!!!

P.S. Credits to Mel for the Ever-so-kissable-lips!

2008-05-07T05:31:00.002+08:00

For some reasons, I can't sleep... No idea why... (maybe some people planted some idea into my head and left it hanging, causing the insomnia) So maybe just take the opportunity to blog...

Actually I also don't what to say... Everyday is just studying and studying and studying... Nothing too exciting... The most exciting part of the day is probably receiving and replying emails from my dearies and receiving calls from people who always complain about my frowns and hardly fail to make me smile...

I'm bounded by the books 24/7... Caught a flu and had no idea why this nose can actually store so much mucus! The books have also made me super duper moody. However, only poor mummy get the impact of these extreme mood-swings.

I love mummy!
She is the only one who can tahan my nonsense, she simply ignore me... (Nonsense meaning I can throw her a black face or a snarl when she least expected it... i.e. when she inform me that food is ready or ask me if I wanna eat or what I wanna eat...)

There are so many things I wanna do!! But I can't just because I have to study...

Missing the carefree life I had... The Mambos and the dragonfly-ing... Missing my dearies... Missing the missing...

Someone who can nag better than my mum said to me, "studying should be your greatest priority, don't let anything else distract you..."

(P.S. Mummy never nag me cos I will surely throw her a lethal black face. Please take into consideration that my face by default is already black, so imagine if I still display a black face over the default... It can really kill!!! Once again, I love mummy!!)

2008-05-03T05:11:00.002+08:00

Dragonfly Rawks
alongside with the one who shares common appreciation...

Falling in love with where everything started, everything and anything...
(except for the exams)

Dragonfly ...Love Love Love... Dragonfly

2008-04-30T00:38:00.005+08:00

I've got a tiny winy secret-y sinful indulgence to reveal....

I have been contemplating whether to share, and suddenly, now I thought "Why not?"

So there it is....
It all started with this group of people on a particular Friday of April... With loads of alcohol....

I guess the pics will just speak for itself....

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And then comes a weird request....

Aye????

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And my answer is....

Round 2????
For a better shot on the camera??
Can I say "no" after round one?

Ta-da~!!!

Understand??

2008-04-28T01:04:00.004+08:00

Some Random Pics.... (taken sometime back)

Mini- Cam-Whoring at Marina Sq Gloria Jean's...

Agnes, Me and Geok (The ladies in Black)
Never take pic with ur mouth full of muffins!!! Fat... Gluttony...
Gary, Mel, Me and Geok
Somehow Mel and I put on the pouty lips pose on our own accord...
The 3 of us again....
Mel's zi pai... (you lian guo de wor!!) Hahaa!!

2008-04-26T22:39:00.005+08:00

I'm a slacker today... No study, no go out.... Just plain sleeping at home and having some Me-time, painting nails... taking long shower, listening to music and indefinitely, waiting for things to happen... =D

And in the midst of my home-stay on a Saturday, I spend a whopping USD113.50.

I must say, shopping is the number one instant stress relief... It beats Mahjong-ing, Texas-poker-ing, PSP-ing, Wii-ing, Chiong-ing etc etc etc.

I love online shopping!! Its fun because there is a certain thrill attached... Now is the anticipation of the arrival of the goods... If the goods turn out fine and up to expectation, you will be plainly over-joyed. However, if it turns out below expectation, just take it as you spent some money on buying the thrill of anticipation...

These are what I bought from Vic's Secrets:

Yeah!!! Looking forward to receiving my purchases!!

I miss my girlies!!!
I am stressed from exams and emo-ing sometimes cos I miss my girlies too much.... In the back of my mind, I'm already planning the time together with my girlies when they are back...

I am thinking of a slumber party... I'm sure we'll have loads to talk about (esp. me, the provider of juicy stories!!) Clad in our PJs, bolsters and pillows... Snacking on expensive chips and watching bimbotic shows...

Pampering ourselves with expensive dinners and wines... Spree-ing till the last open shop... Hanging out at Kovan Mac/prata house...

We talked about going for hi-tea for centuries and we haven't went for one together yet!!!

AND, I cant wait to see lainey in Shanghai!!!! I miss her to bits and pieces!!!

I miss my girlies badly!!!! Boooo....

2 more months and I can't wait!!!

P.S I miss you babes loads!!

2008-04-21T03:43:00.017+08:00

Happy Birthday to Muah~!!!!!
Thanks everyone for the well wishes... Many pleasant surprises from many people whom I have not heard for a long time... Thanks once again!!

And...

Happy Birthday to SIOW HUI!!!!!

Loads of pics coming up.. Maybe more (if I am able to get from the others)

My 22nd is the bestest Bday I ever had... I wish laine, Mich and Jenna are around too...

Maybe just let the pics do all the talking... =D

A huge huggable from BerD... Thanks!! =D

18th April : Aloha Changi Fairypoint Bungalow 1
(Its my party and I'll cry if I want to... LOL!!!)

This is the most hilarious party I ever had... My B-day costume party!!!
We had Animae character from Naruto, Bleach etc. to Chinese Royal Family with the Emperor, princess and Eunuch.... And a red hot sexy Mama!

Seriously, hilarious is an understatement... HAHA!! Some people even think that we are disgusting!

SURPRISE~!! I really think I have the makes of a housewife... I whipped up a table full of stuff for steamboat... Impressed??? I'm a potential good housewife...

Who wants to marry me??? Haha~!!

Let me introduce... This guy in the following pic is Yisheng aka Felix the cat! Look at him... I just cant stop laughing!!!

Next up: Tim Juan aka Timmy... He drives my favourite car, Mini cooper S!
Eunuch... Cigarette? Nice "whiskers" though....
Yuan Xiang the princess of the night....Xiang-ge-ge qian shui, qian shui, qian qian shui!!
Aaron... Bleach character...
Weihan aka His Majesty: "Who says Emperor cannot use handphone?" He is the most serious about his role of an Emperor...
OOOOOOoooooHH!! Here comes the red hot sexy Mama aka BerD... Experienced cross-dresser... Even the ba-pok of Changi find him an eyesore.... He indeed looks disgusting but still able to make us laugh with his demure poise!! LOL!!!

A kiss for the b-day girl.... Hey hey, wait... ain't you attached? Not scared gf see?

The following is my boss who treats me (the employee) the best!! My boss is the best boss, and the most shuai boss... LOL!!

I'm taller!! LOL
Siow Hui and I... =D cute right?

Geok... Not in a costume... Boring and disappointing... BORING!!!

Pretty Jane...

Disgusting?? Ghostly... ??? Oh yeah....

Me, the Kawaii Jap student... I look very happy... In fact, I am happy... =D
My strawberry shortcake sponsored by Boss.. Thanks Boss.... =D

Siow Hui and I could just celebrate our birthday together... =))
It my birthday leh!! BerD is probably jealous and pretends that its was his birthday instead...

I really had a hell of a good time... Thanks everyone for the spontaneity and delivering fun to the party... The only disappointing part of the party was, I wasn't drunk at the end of it... I was prepared to be drunk manX!! LOL!!

Thanks to everyone who was there!!

2008-04-12T12:58:00.007+08:00

Its been awhile since I last updated on baggie issues... I love bags!! Just as much as I love shoes!! Yes, I am a materialistic irrational bimbo and I love the way I am!! Wheeee~!!

I swear I am just a die-hard LV fan... I don't whats the reason, I just love it somehow...
I love big and roomy bags, partly cos I carry loads of junk with me... I saw someone carrying this on the train the other day... And since then, I started falling for it...
Love this white number to bits and pieces!! Elegant and Perfect!
Its Demin counterpart is casual and sassy.... Just tell me why one will not fall for LV?
This red wallet just screams out for attention!! I love it!!
Lovely, aren't they???
Where is my sugar daddy???

2008-03-31T13:56:00.006+08:00

Prelude to my Costume cum Bday party....

Back to school on 28 Mar.
NYJC, SAJC, ACJC & Presbytarian High...

Verdict: I look like a student the most.

The Uniform quad.

Kawaii?
Smoking in school ground.... Where is the DM???

Did not cam-whore much... But wearing school uniform is quite inconvenient... Shopping was inconvenient. Staying out till late invites some weird stares... And entry deny at certain places. But we still pubbed at boat quay, did not manage to hit our hideout-Dragonfly.

Next up: 18th April... Big Bang Party...

Stay tuned...

2008-03-04T03:57:00.002+08:00

Emotional me is screaming out inside, but there is no one around. Still.

bleah

Have a Happy Period!

2008-02-29T18:58:00.002+08:00

Hmmmmm...

Maybe this is what you have been waiting for... Friday!! Wisdom tooth extraction!!!

I woke up @ 8.30am SUPER DUPER EXCITED ABOUT THE SURGERY!!! Headed down to the clinic promptly...

Ok, cut short of these unnecessary details...

The dentist was damn pro. He lay me down on the chair and start telling me the procedure. First, he applied some numbing gel to my gums and started with the local anesthesia... The needle was damn BIG!! And so frigging scary...

The he started injecting from the back of the gums to the front... He really stuck the needle so deep into the jaw, I thought he was reaching for my jaw bone!!! Surprisingly it wasn't painful... Just feels weird that the needle went in so deep....

Almost immediately, half of my face is numb. Even my eyelid cannot close completely...

Then, it started even without me knowing!!! He opened up my gums without me knowing!! The he said " Now, I'm going to drill into the tooth, you might feel some discomfort and alot of vibrations, if you don't feel well please let me know. And also you will not feel any pain at all during the surgery. So, if you experience any pain, please let me know also, then I can give u another jab. Ok, I'm gonna start."

Drill. And,
Drill... More drilling.... (but didn't feel any vibration at all)

"I'm going to cut the tooth into half and you might hear a VERY load snap sound, so don't worry about that"

(no snap sound either)

And he took a really large pincer, spanner (whatever you call it) thingy to yank out the broken half of the tooth...

Drill... And More drilling....

And slowly taking out the pieces of the tooth...

Its was less that half and hour and VIOLA! Cool stuff...

The tooth was really huge and the disappointing thing was I did not request to have the bloody tooth back. So, no pictures today... Cos I look like I have Mumps or something... My right side of the face is swollen!!

So, its heading home to rest, and slept for about 4 hours... I woke up feeling frigging hungry again... Tried to eat something and guess what I fainted then and there at the dining table!! I WAS SITTING DOWN!!

I faint pretty often so, fainting just now was pretty usual but the black out time was the longest I ever experienced... I was totally off and breaking out in cold sweat and mummy tried to help me to my room and she banged onto something in the process...

Mummy loves me!!

Ok, its abrupt.. I dun feel like blogging alr... Rest time!

2008-02-25T13:34:00.008+08:00

I'm suppose to be studying for CF, but I am tired... Super tired and I couldn't concentrate, and the computer is in front of me, so might as well blog (since I haven't been doing so for a long time...)

YooHooo~!! Let me tell you peeps why I am so tired now... I went jogging yesterday in the middle of the night...
Mileage:Unsure
Route: My house to Compass point!!!

Feels good!! Feel really tired now though... I need to sleep!!

And anyway, life has been happening as usual... Hmmmm... But its time to restrain and start hitting the books... Books turn me off... But do I have a choice? NAH!!

Whatever it is, I looking forward to more KTV sessions, dragonfly, more movies, my birthday, meeting a someone out there and definitely the end of exams!!!! So that I can fly to Shanghai to meet my Lovie!! I miss you my dear!!! I cant wait to see you in Shanghai!!

Geok: I'm so sorry, I watched P.S. I Love You without you... If you need company, I don't mind watching it again... I cried a few buckets in the Cinema.... SOOOOOO SADDDDDD~!!!! Yet SOOOOO SWEEEEETTTTT~!!!

BTW, I'm extracting my wisdom tooth this Friday! Other than having to spend a few hundreds to inflict pain on myself, I am rather excited about the surgery... PAIN LET'S YOU KNOW THAT YOU ARE STILL ALIVE!!

So, probably I will update this blog again after the surgery...

Till then, I leave everything as it is for now... =D

2008-02-01T13:55:00.000+08:00

Hi World~!!!

Its been a long while since I updated this Secret Garden of mine... I have been really busy... ( I'm glad I am) Furthermore, I'm just too lazy, and my computer has some viral problem and blogging thus became a chore suddenly...

I miss my Dear Laine super badly... Without her, life is so boring... No more Gossippy suppers... No companion during awkward noon hours... No one for me to pour all my juicy gossips to... Chatting has been reduced to MSN... *Computer's Viral problem disallowed me to skype!!*

Laine I miss you!!! I will get my phoenix card soon!!!

Mich is probably enjoying herself at SwitZ!! Just looking at her blog is enough to make you soak up with jealousy!!!

Singapore is not at all boring for me either... =)) I still have occasional suppers with some mates... Movies.... Only shopping is not satisfiable for me cos girls are not very free... Nonetheless, no qualms at all!!

I duno what else to say... Too many things and too lazy fingers to type...!! LOL~!!

Did not take too much pics recently... This is all that I have for your eyes!! Enjoy~!!

Mambo Jumbo-23rd Jan'08
Mambo is always a fun factor for me... Despite the fact that they play the same songs everyweek and do exactly the same actions, I just still so love it!! I can go like everyweek, without getting bored at all!! LOL~!!!! Yes, I am a Mambo Freak =))

The Day DearLaine Left For Shanghai
Our Polariods... One for each of us to keep in our wallets!! =)) Sweet!! SH left early, thus she wasn't in this polaroid-ing affair...

This is what you do when the class is too boring... Cam whoring...

Me and frens In MSM on an unglam Monday =))

So far.... Thats all with this once-in-a-blue-moon update....

Cheers~!!

CNY IS COMING~!!!

2008-01-03T22:16:00.000+08:00

It's been a long time since I last blogged....

Xmas passed and its the NEW YEAR~!!!!
Belated Merry Xmas and a Happy New Year!!!

Many things happened and many events took place!! Things are really not the same anymore!! Everything is more fun and is getting crazier now!! Supper, Movies, Shopping, Gym-ing, Mambo-ing... Ops!! Almost forgot, schooling!! Too many things to do!! Had loads of drinks recently- Vodka, Tequila, Baileys, Brandy, Beer etc etc... I have not drank so much for the entire 20 years of my life and I am surprised how much I can actually hold!!

My life RAWKS upside down, inside out!!

I finally found a drink that I really liked!! Thanks to the Bartender for his wonderful concoction-Dreamer!! Its SOOOOOOO Sweeet and wonderfull!! Definitely something that will not make you puke!! I just can't stop falling in love with it!! Muahahahahahaa~!!

Okay.... Enough of drinks... Lets get serious... PhotoS!!! (there are some QC)

Xmas 2007

These pics are somehow sequential.... From totally sober to alittle tipsy!! LOL~!!

This is where the Tipsy-ness comes in... Totally crazy and HIGHLY stackable!!

And Geok is KO-ed~!!

Geok's Bday (Happy Birthday Geok~!!)

SIM Bash-Scandilicious

Is this pic scandilicious enough?? Anyway, he's not my bf!! I'm SINGLE!!!

That's all as of now... I will try to update more often if time permits... Ciao~!! =D

2007-12-10T17:03:00.000+08:00

I'm happy, glad, over-joyed, delighted, on cloud no.9!!!

Somehow these adjectives can't seem to describe the happyness in me... They are under-rated!!

I finally break free from my stubborn-ness... And I must say, life couldn't be better than this! Seriously, there are loads I wanna say, loads I wanna tell him, but somehow, I just feel that it doesn't matter anymore... I feel so much for Ronan Keating's song now... "You say it best, when you say nothing at all..."

Why be sad over one who doesn't seem to appreciate and cherish? Why be sad when all others are happy?

I love my life, I love myself!! I have never been more happy as much as I can remember!! Life is not just about Love and relationship and him manZ!!! Yeah!! I'm finally found myself being so FOOLISH!!! Although its abit too late, but its better than never.. Whahahahaa~!! Sometimes it still hurts... Sometimes I still think about things... BUT, I'm sure I'll get over it soon. People has moved on with their lives, I will too!!

So, I'm so gonna rock the house!!

2007-12-04T17:17:00.000+08:00

I fell today

2007-12-02T14:38:00.000+08:00

I'm getting emo... ... ... ...

When things are so near yet so far....

So near within the distance of an arm, but yet I can't hold on to...

Things I wanna know and concern about but yet I have no courage to ask...

What have you been doing? Are you doing well? How's work? How's studies? How's Busa? How's car? How's everything?

I'm not good at all... Do you know? I've been drowning myself with people I dun wanna go out with, people I dun wanna talk to, things that I dun wanna do and the nothings that I dun wanna do...

I feel suffocated... I run everyday to numb myself... So that I can breathe hard when my body needs the air to move forward... I'm afraid I'll forget to breathe and not get to see you again... Just wanna see that you are fine from afar...

I ask myself what have become of me... I'm not sure enough. Only sure thing I know now, hang on to that love I found...

2007-11-29T23:01:00.000+08:00

I didn't say anything doesn't mean I have nothing to say.
I didn't say anything doesn't mean I give up.
I didn't say anything doesn't mean I don't care anymore.

Will you hear me out?
Will anyone wanna hear my story?
Will anyone be there when I am screaming out loud?

2007-11-26T21:48:00.000+08:00

I don't know why, but I just feel damn sad...

http://rememberingjerbroni.blogspot.com/

I don't know what I can say now...

May peace be with you... As always remembered...

2007-11-26T16:14:00.000+08:00

Life is so vulnerable and fragile... You never know what will happen next...

If you have been following the news, you would have heard of the recent tragic accident at Cambodia... 5 national team dragon boat rowers lost their lives... One of whom is a fellow SIM student...

Its rather tormenting to hear this news... I dunno how to express this grief... But its time we give support those who lost their loved ones... Lending a shoulder to those who need it...

It was a gloomy Monday, gloomy faces and gloomy weather...

As much as how unpredictable life can be, cherish life, cherish eachother...

Something to share...

I try to talk to you, but I don't know what to say. I am afraid you don't want me to say anything. So I don't. But inside of me there are words waiting to come out. And tell you how I feel, like how I miss you. And how I love you despite my broken heart. And how I need you in my life. And especially how much I want you. But those words may forever stay in my heart, locked inside. Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside you too... but I'll never know.

- Unknown Author

2007-11-24T17:49:00.000+08:00

So many things to get but there is so little budget.... Like I always say, I wish money drop from the sky into my pocket...!!!! Sometimes I really hope I graduate soon and start work and hopefully earn loads of peanuts to satisfy my material needs...

I've been working like crazeeeee... Like 6 days a week.... But money still doesn't seem enough...

Money just disappear once they appear in my bank at the start of the month.... Now before i get my nest pay, I already have so many things in mind...

1) Change battery for my watch... I have been watchless for ages and its killing me... I am just a watch person!! I cant live without a watch!!

2) Get book ends.... My notes are coming in at a crazy volume... and I need book ends or any of that sort to keep things organised... My bro just commented my my table is horrendously messy!! =P

3) Get a pair of jeans.... Eyeing on Levi's ladies... Nice... I need jeans!! I can't live without them!! Currently... all the pants are just too lose for me... Hmmmmm.. Anyone who has jeans that they don't want can consider donating to me...

4) More clothes... I wanna get a white shirt from ZARA!! Nicey nicey!!

5) More undies, Bras, Sportsbra!!! I have not enough of these esp. sports bra... And Swimming suit!! I cant swim cos I have no swim suit!! Darn!!

6) I have been eyeing at this white Fossil watch too... Urghhhh!!! Watch!! I need watch!!!

7) Ultimate Lust: LV Neverfull MM/GM (currently out of stocks -__-"' Got money also canot buy)

Yesterday the girls were saying that their Bfs complained that we are actually rather extravagant... The things we buy, the things we eat, the places we go and the frequency we do such things... I did not realise until they spoke of it yesterday... Yes, I must agree, we are rather extravagant and the worst thing is, we are all not wealthy to begin with.. Oh well... Blame it on the way we are brought up, the way we influence eachother...

Its just uniquely us... Alrighty.. Time for a run!! Adopt a healthy lifestyle!

*****

Just came back from jog, and received a terrible news... Life is so vulnerable... Treasure and cherish everyone... Hold on to those cherished for somethings you can never hold back again...

2007-11-19T21:45:00.000+08:00

14 Nov was officially mine and Geok's bday... We had a cake... 0.5kg all to ourselves ONLY~!!

Just joking~!!! The cake was just a stress relief... Mango Mirror from Prima Deli... Too bad they Mango delight was sold....

Now you see it...........

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Now you don't.... Its gone within a snap of the fingers and the blink of an eye...

And every sweet sweet sweet we had on that day....

Sugar Overdose?? Yeah!! It doesn't get me...

I have been missing someone real badly... So badly, I have been crying my days away... I lost appetite, even my mummy couldn't do anything to make me eat... What am I to do to gain appetite? I now can pull my jeans down even without un-buttoning it... The only hope I have is for tomorrow to be a better day...

I was totally off-focus today... I just wanted to go home as soon as I could after class.. But Freaking hell, I TOOK THE WRONG BUS!!! Luckily I did not sleep and still could drop in time to change a bus home... Wasted time and bus fare... I was so angry with myself!!! URGHH~!!!

Oh well...

Everyone says that when I get through this, I will look back and laugh at myself for being so silly... I doubt so...

For moment last for seconds, memories live forever... Somethings will just never change...

2007-11-14T11:38:00.000+08:00

Maybe its time I stop probing for answers... The only answer to all my questions is: I love him for he is the one I love... Past, present and future... No matter what has happened, my love for him is just as strong...

Yes, I have been making things difficult for him, trying to force him to accept my love. Looking for him in the middle of the night, crying... Tiring him out... I am apologetic about those things I have done. Its due to fear. The fear of him forgetting me, losing him henceforth. I need courage...

Yes, I am making things difficult for myself. Its time I be a little less self-centered and put down my pride, and look at things from his point of view. Definitely, it may be better if I were to move on... By choosing this path, I am prolonging my pain. There are a thousand reasons why I should give up, but I'm stubborn in the things I believe in... Even with just one reason for me to hang on, I can overlook the other reasons why I should give up.

Maybe its true that no one is indispensible... Its the choice between you want to do it or not. This is my choice, I have chosen him...

In the name of love, I will bear the pain and hold on. Maybe one day he will realise how much I love him. Maybe one day we could be together again. Even if not, that will not compromise my love for him.

I will not ask for answers anymore. I will not try to force him anymore. I do not want to force him to the edge of the cliff anymore.

Somethings may be said or done at the heat of the moment. I just hope we could take a step back and calm ourselves down, cherish eachother...

Alvin, I love you.

2007-11-09T16:52:00.000+08:00

I don't like hospitals...

Its gloomy... Life is so vulnerable...

Its makes me wanna cry

=((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

Most of all,
I miss you

=((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

2007-11-08T18:27:00.000+08:00

勇气

终于做了这个决定
别人怎么说我不理
只要你也一样的肯定
我愿意天涯海角都随你去
我知道一切不容易
我的心一直温习说服自己
最怕你忽然说要放弃

爱真的须要勇气来面对流言诽语
只要你一个眼神肯定
我的爱就有义意
我们都须要勇气
去相信会在一起
人潮涌济我能感觉你
放在我手心里，你的真心

如果我的坚强任性
会不小心伤害了你
你能不能温柔提醒
我虽然心太急
更害怕错过你

2007-11-05T00:17:00.000+08:00

Been really lazy to blog... Basically there is nothing much to blog about either...

Besides the fact that I am attaining great nirvana and getting more and more god-like... There is nothing pretty much more exciting already... I am saying I am getting more like god in a sense that I can live totally fine without food. So, I am living a food-less and sleep-less lifestyle... Nothing more glad than seeing those waist and big fat butt getting smaller and smaller by the day... On the other hand, there is nothing more terrible and torturous than a human trying to live a life like god. Yet, I am still doing it subconsciously...

Magical numbers *33, 24, 36, 48*... Lovely...

As expected, gastro problems come knocking on my door... Its pretty awkward and disgusting and emabarrassing. I can't seem to get back into eating right and regular... Even its just a gulp of water, I will burp like crazy... Crazy in the sense that its unstoppable, uncontrollably loud! Its super duper embarrassing cos I can be in the public and I cannot control the burp... And its the whole torture of feeling nausea all the time, especially after you trying to push some food down the throat.

Eating dosen't seem to be a pleasure anymore but a chore... I am reliant on charcoal pills and enzyplex... HaiZz... I just gotta say, I somewhat take pleasure in torturing myself...

Some pics taken on Mich's Birthday.... Love you Mich!

Anyway, there is a new PSP, slimer and lighter, and it comes in a beautiful shade of baby pink!!!! I am so very tempted... PSP or Ipod Nano?? Will they have baby pink for Ipod Nano???

2007-10-31T11:13:00.000+08:00

There are a hundred and one things in my mind and a thousand and one words I wanna say... But I wonder if everything should be revealed. If I do, I run the risk of getting myself labled as trying to act pitiful... I feel that I am at wits end... I dunno what is the next step I should embark on. I duno where else to channel my emotions other than transforming it into tears... How do I not let emotions control me?

Thinking back, I wonder why have I done so many stupid things... I feel dumb and many people say I was dumb... I didn't know what I want, I didn't know how to express myself, I let emotions control me, I throw a tantrum at everyone and dismisses any help that came along my way. They say I deserve everything and there is nothing much that I could do now but to sit along a wait for things to befall on me.

I made myself feel so alone but the actual fact there are actually so many people that stood by me. They were invisible to me and I made myself invisible to them.

I'm so sorry!! If I have not been so wilful... If I have not been so self-centered... If I were to see things from another point of view...

I have hurt and I am hurt....

Does it even help if I explain myself? Will it be an explanation or rather another excuse I have for myself? I will try do it anyway...

I was dumb. Dumb for the fact that I have long made up my mind but yet, did not do anything simply because of silly comments made by other people. I was told not to care about other's opinion but I kept dwelling on it, even now.

No, am I just emotionally unstable...? I was just not logical anymore. Emotions overwhelm me, and I allowed it to control me. But in the midst of this struggle, there were little gestures that I tried to do, but it was just too insignificant and not enough... Zoo... I asked. I did something, right? Is it really I have not done anything or is it, you forgotten what I have done. WIll you look what I have not done but what I have done? After the BBQ, I sms-ed that I was homed, was that forgotten too? I know I ought to be apologetic, and I did not, but I gave in my little own way already, didn't I? And you were really angry... I was angry too... And I was even more upset over the untold purchase... What am I to say? So I just kept quiet...

Why did I not say a single thing about those sad comments? As much as you duno what you should say to me, I am not so witty to know how to react either... Its not that I have taken things for granted but believe it or not, I really duno how to react...

Now, I am sorry, but is it significant anymore?

Everyone has their mistakes. I do have my own mistakes. I really don't know how to handle emotions. I am trying to learn through my mistakes... Does everything mean that I have to be sent to hell? I just needed some time and a little confirmation, will time wait for me?

It just confirms even more that Time will not heal but it just let you forget what was once held so dear... So you try to remember... Reminisc...

I am sorry to you, to the girls... Everyone... I was such a disappointment, wearing a hat too big for my head that I can't see anything... But I will learn...

Believe, have a little more faith...

2007-10-29T03:02:00.000+08:00

Can't sleep for goodness sake at 3am and gotta wake at 6am.. There is just one place I wish I can go now...

I don't know what more to say...

2007-10-26T07:02:00.000+08:00

Woke up at 6 am, and I couldn't fall back into sleep. I guess I slept too early. I forced myself to sleep too early..

Maybe I have loads of things on my mind as well. Once I close my eyes, everything runs into my mind.

It sucks, I swear... It sux to wake up feeling empty, hungry and cold. Just too hungry if not i probably go find some alcohol to make myself fall dead into my bed once again.

I am very disappointed with alot of things happening lately. I hate that fact that I have put in effort into doing something and everything still seems to go in vain. As much as I wanna defeat the ideology that "things will never be the same again", it seems to be more promising that things in fact are never gona be the same again. I do not wish to specify more on this.

I am not having my PMS but I am irritated with things. Irritated with the fact that mummy has made dinner. Yes, she has made dinner but only one dish edible! Is it cos the fact that she zhong nan qing nu cos my bro is not coming home for dinner and she have to ruch off for you-know-what appointment. I would rather she have not cooked any and I don't have to oblige to eat whatever that she has anyhow-cooked and go to the coffeeshop and da bao. I would rather go on a hunger strike more than anything else.

I am irritated by the fast that everyone seems to be all busy and hoping somethings will happen and simply hoping something will happen.
(Is it cos that I am too free that I am dwelling too much on something and causing myself to be irritated with stuffs that I should not concern more?)

I am having groundless anger. Angry with things that I ought not to be angry about.
HaiZzz... All I can do is to sit and stone and hope things will subside and hopefully into the places I want it to be.

URGHH~!!!

I am fretting over so many things I need a break. How am I to let myself stop thinking about things and really go relax my mind? How should I do it? Will somebody teach me?

*Angry!!! ANGRY with myself*

I don't know why, but sometimes like now, I really hate myself.

2007-10-23T14:05:00.000+08:00

I had a dream last night... A weird dream... A hilarious dream... Almost a scary dream...

I dreamt that I was pregnant with a kiddo... I actually dreamt of giving birth!!! The most scary part of the dream was the aftermath of birth giving...

In my dream, after giving birth, my boobs actually up its size significantly... Like really scarily... It just like bloated up, and in my dream, I actually poked the breast and MILK OOOOOOzed out!!!! NON STOP!!! OMG!! Its freaking hilarious... Like there is milk all over the floor, EVERYWHERE!!!

Its damn scary how much milk can those bossom mates hold!!! And Amazing how it can swell with so much milk like almost instantly!!!

I actually breast fed my baby in the dream... It feels freaking weird.... I duno how to describe... Imagine a toothless baby nibblinb for milk.... OMG!! I can't imagine, and I don't wanna imagine...

Why am I having this kinda weird dream manZ!!

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I saw 2 road accidents consecutively over 2 days... One was yesterday morning. Rainy weather. BANG!!!!! A pickup gave a big french kiss to the nissan sunny in front of it... Sunny's bumper dented and the boot cannot be closed... There was even a toddler in the back passenger seat. Luckily the toddler was clad firmly in the baby's seat...

Talk about accidents... ACCIDENTS!! I think I am crazy or what, cos many times I visualise myself being hit by a really serious accident, bleeding profusely, near the brink of death and being hospitalised for many days... The only thing I could not visualise is: who comes to visit me at my ward...

Sometimes I think that I'm a chronic, pretentious and gut-less attention seeker... UUURGGHHHH!!!

2007-10-22T23:53:00.000+08:00

Was playing around facebook and I chance upon this really interesting feed.. Its the Zodiac Sign thingy... Just to share with you all.... Time to get to know a little bit more about me...

I am a TAUREAN FIRE TIGER!!! Grrrrrrr....

Suddenly I feel so proud to be a Tiger!!

Brief description
Tigers are strong but very emotional and sensitive. They can get stubborn over things that they believe to be right or true. (I can be darn stubborn! Try me...)

Positive Traits
lovable, alluring, warm-hearted, altruistic, honourable, hard-working, pleasant, independent, engaging, dynamic and idealist sweetie pies

Negative Traits
rash, hot-headed, reckless, infatuated, quarrelsome, caustic, moody, predatory, rebellious, disobedient and irreverent rascals (That is SO me!!!!)

General description of all Tigers
Tigers do not find worth in power or money. They will be completely honest about how they feel and expect the same of you. On the other hand, they seek approval from peers and family. Generally, because of their charming personalities Tigers are well liked. Often, failing at a given task or being unproductive in his personal or professional life can cause a Tiger to experience a depression. Criticism from loved ones can also generate this type of Tiger reaction. Still, like all felines, Tigers always land on their feet, ready for their next act in life, pursuing it with unyielding energy and hunting it infallibly. (OMG!! The part on criticism is super true!! I wonder if I am really well liked... Dosen't seem to be so... BoooSs...)

Tigers are also incorrigibly competitive - they simply cannot pass up a challenge, especially when honor is at stake, or they are protecting those they love. Tigers are unpredictable and it would be unwise to underestimate their reactions. They may appear cool, but they have the Big Cat's instincts to pounce at a moment's warning. Natural leaders, they have a strong sense of their own dignity, and if they find themselves in the ranks, they can be stubborn and obstinate. In positions of power they can be difficult though stimulating bosses. Tigers are intelligent, alert, and farsighted. They have their fingers on the pulse. Good strategists and tacticians, they often have a hidden agenda. As long as they do not risk their luck too often, and keep their restless nature under control, their tactics usually pay off in life.

Detail description of the Fire Tiger
Eccentric and dramatic, Fire Tigers are aglow with passion and verve. They are outgoing, expressive and look on the bright side of things. They have the Tiger's natural ability to lead others and are able to excite others simply with their own gift of enthusiasm. They can be funny and have great senses of humor. Tigers are powerful speakers and have the ability to command and persuade crowds through speech. Their own seemingly endless supply of energy can make them appear a bit dramatic, and it may make them more sensitive to cautious or down-to-earth approaches in others. (Am I really a good orator?)

Taurean Tiger
More down-to-earth than other Tigers, these people are practical and will finish tasks they start. They work well under pressure and can maintain their workloads through amazing efforts. They are passionate in their partnerships and provide stability to their loved ones.

The Tiger Lover
Tigers are incredibly sexy people, beautiful to most people and sensually romantic. They are spontaneous lovers who never lose their creative spark or flare for an evening of passion. They offer their partner a hint of danger and exhibit a curiosity for the unknown.

Money and Tiger
Tigers depend on luck. They like to spend money, and also to share it. They can be quite impulsive spenders because they know they can always make more. Somehow, as luck would have it, they discover the end of the rainbow just before complete bankruptcy. They are willing to lose a fortune in their lifetime, if it means they will wind up with two. (I cannot agree more)

2007-10-22T00:26:00.000+08:00

I am still alive!!!! (this may disappoint some people) But still I AM STILL ALIVE!!

And I am wondering...

I really wonder.... Wonder....

I really don't understand myself and how am I gonna let others understand me....

If you say you understand me, I wonder if you really understood me simply 'cos even I can't understand myself.

I am never satisfied.

I'm a Bitch, let me die...

Shopaholic Bitch Likes the bag above... Roomy enough for me to bring out all my nonsense...

2007-10-18T16:44:00.000+08:00

I am engaged in Bimbotic thoughts!

I wanna wear pretty clothes... Wear pretty makeup... Carry pretty tote bag with pretty accessories!!!

I want pretty hair! Pretty nails! Pretty from head to toe!

I want curling thongs to curl these poker straight hair!!! I miss those curly hair days! But I think these hair of mine will refuse to take any other shapes other than staying poker straight... Hmmmmm...

I feel like dyeing my hair but hate the hassle of maintaining when regrowths emerge... *I'm so hard to please*

I wanna lose those pounds... And become ANOREXIC!! LOL!! *Just kidding*
Skinny!! Smaller butt, flatter abs and leaner legs and leaner arms... *I need discipline*

Fade those freckles on my cheeks and tighten up those pores!! Gimme a More defined double eyelid!!

I think I need plastic surgery!!

Where should I start??

Donations to Love Jasmin Fund open now!!!

2007-10-17T19:21:00.000+08:00

In Slumberland...

Slept the entire day.. Feels great... Feels like I have recouped all the sleep that I have lost...

U know what?? I am gonna be CHEAP and start telling people what I am aiming for again... If it makes you happy that I am CHEAP, yes, you got your wish...

I want an Ipod Nano video...

That's how small it is.....

And... How thin it is.....

My current MP3 player spoil le... Like DEAD!! Anyway, I am sick of this Brand C... Time for a new one~!!

I can't live without a MP3 player... I seems like my life is less of something...Drastic! Without music, I am distracted... I can't destress...

2007-10-15T00:40:00.000+08:00

I didnt know I have made so many enemies... First it was Cher, and now its name? Hmmmmm... Prolly people like to see me fall, cry and live in misery... God knows who is this anonymous who dosent dare stand by its words by being anonymous...

"if one chain can buy u, i think u're cheap!"

"Oh yes!! I care so much about what you think... My sky is falling!!!"

So am I suppose to be sad over this comment? Or angry? How am I suppose to react? Cry over another childish comment? Nah... Once bitten, twice shy... For who knows Cher and name? might be the same person making the same kinda comment... (notice the word might in bold:in case you may be misreading this again, I am not saying that they are the same person wor)

Oh well... One sentence, so many meanings. I just said, I'll be a good girl. Does that constitute that you can own me? Maybe to you it is, cos prolly you are already looking at me through your own tinted lenses. And yes, definitely, you have the right to comment and the freedom of speech (freedom of speech prolly very effective in USA, but I am in Singapore) and you may think that whatever you said is your problem and I can close my eyes not to see, or close my ears not to hear... But even kiddos know that once you open your eyes, u can see many things even those you don't wanna see even if you choose to close your eyes, people around you may tell you about it too. Once something is said, if you are in the the radius where the wavelength can travel, you will prolly hear it anyway... Bear in mind, you are saying things on somebody else's blog, and sometimes certain comments are not welcomed...

So is that the they way I am suppose to react to your comment? Or gather all the girls and bitch about how childish and bo liao this person is? Or tell alvin about it and find out if its his sis? DUMB right? Or Ignore? Budden I've seen the comment already, how can I ignore? But even if I don't wanna ignore what can I do? Track the IP address? That's another dumb thing to do, cos I may be darn free but why must I waste so much time on a anonymous person?

Anyway, you make my life so interesting!! I finally have things to fret about!! Like "Oh no!! I am cheap!! How how??? How to add value to myself??" I can't believe I am so bo liao too..

But anyway, what's wrong with being cheap? At least I am worth something now, unlike some others who are worthless, or even worse. Oh well... I wonder...

**********************************************

Enough said...

2007-10-12T02:19:00.000+08:00

I miss those regular girls night out where we drive around for food, supper, late night movies or pubbing. Hong Kong Cafe at East Coast, East Coast Food Centre, Dempsey Rd, Cafe Del Mar etc etc, places where is it rather inaccessible without a vehicle.

I miss SUPPER!!! Supper with everyone at Kovan... Just spending our time together, gossipping, sharing beauty tips, dreaming about the future together etc etc. Now supper is reduced to only me and Laine...

SAD!!!!

Soon laine will leave for her overseas intern... I can foresee that I'll be by myself in this lonely land... SH is forever busy, Mich also the same and she leaving for exchange next year, and Geok only free once in awhile and she is starting her intern soon...!!!!

Laine.... DUN GO LA!!! Stay In SG, if not bring me along!!! SIGH!!

Saw the doctor today... Am I getting old or something...?? I am just not as pink of health anymore... I am dependent on the doctor and I am very concern about health problems now. Women health especially. Seems like cancer affects women more than men... Oh no!!! I think I really need insurance... Hail! Insurance agents! Look me up! I need a health policy!

I am serious... I am scared I will die or rather half dead leaving my family bear all my medical bills... Buy a policy before any misfortune strikes me... =P

2007-10-11T01:32:00.000+08:00

There are so many things I wanna say, I wonder where should I start.

Just start with this first (others come in later entries)

I wanna thank everyone who tried to cheer me up and showed concern about me. Nothing is better than knowing that there are actually people to support me when I am falling. To hx who has been listening to me and trying to provide useful suggestions, Banana Man with yellow tights and the new COOL space shuttle(LOL! you should know who you are) and the girls especially-I LOVE U!! (there may be people whom I missed out, you are appreciated too)

BIG THANK YOU!!!!

I don't know what else more to say... I just hope October pass quickly...

I really wanna go for a holiday badly... ROC! I wanna go ROC!!

Been really unlucky... Hope everything change for the better...

I dunno why I am so tired... No amount of sleep is enough for me... Prolly I was drained dry...

2007-10-09T23:10:00.000+08:00

"Jas, what happened to you? Why do you look so glum? Anything troubling you? Are you sure you're ok? Need some vitamin............"

"Errrr... Nothing. Just a little tired... Not been sleeping well. I'm fine"

That's my sensitive and concern employer.

I was looking at the mirror yesterday and to my greatest shock, a ghost was staring back at me. The face was pale, almost white with black-ness around the eyes like Ju-on... OMG!! That has become of me... HOW?? What should I do?

I was kinda suay recently. Argh!

Its no joke having to sleep only a mere 4 hours of less every night. Having to crawl Out of bed at approximately 6 am and drag this heavy body to Clementi. Its also very tiring having to struggle to keep those heavy lids from closing and sleep-nodding the head to non-existent question from the lecturer.

Went to meet SH and laine for lunch today at Tanjong Pagar. It made me wanna step out to the workforce now. Wearing nicely pressed shirts and looking corporate and professional!! That's a little moment of imagination...

Recently came across this beautiful thing... I swear if anyone gonna buy this for me, I promise I'll be a good girl for sure.... Its gorgeous!! And most of it all, its inexpensive

As for now, maybe I can be a bad girl indulging and never wanna stop dreaming of beautiful things...

2007-10-08T17:09:00.000+08:00

All I wanna do is have some fun
I got a feeling I'm not the only one...

Went to the Zoooooooooooo...... On Sunday...

White tiger is so beautiful.... But it looks fake... Feels like some Mascot!! LOL!!

This pic got the Mel Gibson's movie, Apocalypto kinda feeling... LOL!!

These Elephants are cute and intelligent!! I am so amazed!!

Got some "VERY CUTE" guy prolly say that the Zebra is a female version of a Horse...

And he said that a Tiger is a female version of a LION!!!!! OMG!!!

This one has got a very beautiful butt... Nicely in the shade of pink, blue and purple...

The hand in the above pic belongs to the "VERY CUTE" and prolly "VERY INTELLIGENT" guy... This guy pick up a snail and came chasing after all of us... Geok and Mich ran so fast to duno where and he freaking hid behind the wall waiting for me... I tried to siam, and he threw the poor snail over at my direction!!! How can u do that??????????????????

Why are we fiddling with the bonnet you may ask... Cos the light was left switched on... So, batt was dead and we had to jump start the car!! Interesting...!! Learnt something new!! I learnt that when auto car's batt died, there is no use trying to puch the car to jump start... You need need the Jump cable and another friendly car... =)

I am sure jumping start a car was the most interesting event of the day...

2007-10-05T11:34:00.000+08:00

Whatever your intentions are, you definitely made your point. I will not act ke lian here anymore for the fact that it will disgust people. I am grateful that you finally voice out your unhappy-ness after 7 years of tolerance. I am glad you, your family and relatives do not have to suffer from this distasteful sight of me.

Thank you for wrecking my life with those hurtful words of yours. You definitely wake me up from my utopian ideas. Thank you for your 7 years of tolerance as it made my life almost a breeze only cos you did that.

You almost killed me, seriously. I have never felt so hurt in my life before not even the times when someone I loved hurt me. You successfully made me cry so much in a night that my face, my hands and my feet are numb (but its ok, you taught me a lesson). CONGRATULATIONS!!

As much as you hated me so much and hope that I will not get back together with Alvin ever again, I bet you are on the road to success too. You really made it almost impossible for us to get back together in the future.

Thanks for everything. Making me grow from this experience. I will definitely heed your advice. I hope Alvin will find you a better sis-in-law. All the best.

To Alvin, as much as I wanna work things out, I don't know how to work anymore. You asked me to think it over carefully, Yes! I will. but seriously, I don't know how long I will take. If you are willing to wait, I will be grateful. But somehow the grass seem to be greener on the other side. It will be difficult and almost ridiculous to move a derailed train back into its track so that you can continue your journey. If you are willing to help, you are defnitely most welcomed but no one has the right to stop you from hopping up to another train that is ready to move off towards your destination.

If you are willing to waste your time on me...

2007-10-03T17:41:00.000+08:00

I have been thinking about this all the time. Thinking about if my decisions were right... Before I carried out what I did, someone asked me if I think I am doing the right thing. I just said, "Its not about making the right choice anymore. I just feel that I have to do it even if it may turn out very wrong." I wonder if I am right...

I asked myself, should everything be right? What is right in the first place? Must I look at everything logically when life itself is not logical to begin with. Should I look at things from its optimality and utility? Sometimes I just wanna let my emotions rule me and let fate take its course... Is it wrong to do this? I wonder...

I wonder if I am starting to regret everything... I wonder... Somehow, I don't know how to face the world now as everything seems absolutely new to me. How do I start to widen my social circle? I am still in the state that I still wanna hide away from the world. TO ESCAPE!!!

I feel like going for a holiday... Even just a short trip to Malaysia or something... Just a tiny-winy getaway...

My mum asked why am I always at home? She finds it weird for someone like me who disappears during weekends, to stay at home and nua through saturday and sunday... I just said, "Bu xiang chu qu be ke yi ah?" Another good excuse for staying at home is that I am totally broke... Go out, no matter what you do, you gotta spend money... HaiZz... Whatever it is, I think I should go out... But I don't know where I can go...

I was talking to laine... And I thought that there is something distinctive about us. We are actually very individualistic people who wants to be acknowledged and not being shadowed by anyone. We don't like the fact that people regard us something rather than ourselves ie. so&so's gf or so&so's friend rather than Jasmin. We don't like that fact that people see us as attached and take it for granted that our bfs will help us out in whatever fields. Because of this, we end up missing out alot. Missing out of being the fact that we could probably be learning something more from someone who is more experienced. Missing out in the sense that we have hardly any chance to make more ernest friends as a matter of fact people will distant away from you knowing that you are attached.

In the gist of it all, we were nurtured to be independent and aspiring people, and once we step out of independence, we feel alienated and soon start to feel lost... Simply because this is not the idea of what life we were taught should be... Life is not just about one person, not just being with one person. Shouldn't Life be more holistic? I don't know what holistic means here, but I am sure expecting more...

Now that everything has happened, I feel even more lost. Cos I realised I really do not have friends!! All I have is the girls. Many other so called friends just disappeared because they are not my first degree friends. Its time I go make more friends and be more sociable, but I don't know how to do so cos I have not been sociable since secondary school days...

Teach me how...

2007-10-02T01:59:00.000+08:00

Ouch~!!!

Hadn't been feeding this poor little stomach of mine... Its has never been so full as of now for more than a week... Thanks babes for Grapevine =)

But something still hurts....

Ouch~!!

2007-10-01T16:57:00.000+08:00

OUCH~!!!

2007-09-30T22:53:00.000+08:00

I just broke the heart of the person who loves me. It hurts me too.

Don't ask me if I am ok. Although that is the most politically right thing to say now, but I would rather you say nothing at all.

Why don't ask me if I am ok? Cos obviously, I am NOT ok and the only politically right answer I can give to that question is, "I am fine. No worries."

Don't force me to put up a false front anymore. I don't wanna put up a false front anymore!!

This is the time that I should trully be myself and act myself. No more hiding in the shadows of doing what others tell to me do. I am sure they have good intentions, but I chose my path. I'm not sure if its the right thing to do but I will bear the consequences myself.

This may be the act of stubborn-ness and impulse, but IT'S MY LIFE...

All that I can say I regretted doing was to say things and do things that hurt other people and whilst I do that, there seems to be nothing that I can do to remedy the situation. It has really come to a point that I am not sure saying "Sorry" is appropriate anymore.

Someone told me that its rather natural for me to feel and do whatever I am doing now. I got myself into a r/s when I was too young. And now, the r/s has matured but I have not. I am still looking for something exciting... To feel pampered, to feel special and definitely not to settle down... The timing is just not right. Its it true??? Or is it just an excuse I give to myself for all my wrong-doings?

Its 30th Sept today, I hope seven days later, life will be easier...

I'm sorry, I would rather I am hated for bringing so much pain...

2007-09-30T00:48:00.000+08:00

Sometimes you worry about people lying to you, but most of the time you come to a realisation that you are the one lying to yourself all the time instead.

Sometimes you tell yourself that you should be doing something else instead, but you still carry on doing what you ought not to do.

Sometimes when the going gets tough and you tell yourself to hang on and you can make it, but deep down inside somehow you have already given up.

Sometimes you tell yourslf that you have to look at things logically-optimality and utility, but in the end you let yourself be ruled over by your emotions.

Sometimes situations are so obvious-telling you that things will not work this way, but you still wanna carry on what's on your mind.

Why are these things happening?

Stubborn-ness?
Persistence?
In denial?
Attitude?

I wonder...

2007-09-28T02:03:00.000+08:00

Just a little interesting article...
Just for laughs...
(click on the pic to enlarge if the words are too small to read)

Mambo Jumbo with the girls...
Whilst waiting for dear laine's grand entry....

I hate my hair!!!!!! The freaking fringe especially!!! Argh!!
Why is it so smoky when there is no smoking around??? I wonder...

2007-09-27T16:32:00.000+08:00

Everything seem to be so against me and out of my way!

Stupid Zen Micro been like almost dead. Watch died. I can't hold a conversation without making people getting irritated with me. School is not exactly very smooth-sailing. What's one of my favourites (Mambo) seems to be killing me.

It feels like I was forcing everyone to go Mambo with me, and everyone seems to be oblige to accompany me there. Everything except the idea of having fun there. Seems like I am the only one having fun there (I wonder if I had fun Truly) Squeezing with the sweaty & smelly crowd. Freaking drunked ladies' heels seem to find an attraction to my toes. Toes were battered. Body Aching. Nausea (definitely not 'cos of alcohol). Putting up a false front.

Sick and tired.

Anyone wanna lose weight?

One hint: Most effective way of losing those flabs is not to eat. However, side effects include weakness, nausea, lethargy and mood swings. Weight loss and beautiful bod will be quite evident depending on individuals. However, beautiful bod not guaranteed.

2007-09-26T00:49:00.000+08:00

Am I unknowingly suffering from this 21st life crisis? I have been undertaking drastic measures, trying to find myself, find my future and find a spot rightfully mine and not shadowed by anyone... In the end, I find myself hurting people around me and hurting myself at the same time.

What should I do? Does anyone understand me? Will anyone still stand by me?

I feel like shutting myself from the outside world. I dun feel like going out at all. I have no mood for supper, no mood for shopping, no mood for food, nothing... I just wanna be alone although its scary to be alone...

2007-09-25T01:14:00.000+08:00

I am afraid of being with myself.

I have been drowning myself in my own river of tears.

What am I to do? Bring me to shore...

2007-09-20T21:37:00.000+08:00

What is success to you? How do you consider a life lead meaningfully?

Is success measured by the amount of wealth you accumulated, the number of assets you own? Or should it be happy-ness, emotional satisfaction?

What is you definition of success?

Would you want to have a bangalow with 4 storeys,5 bedrooms, jacuzzi bathrooms and an open air lap-pool, your dream car parked at the porch, but have no one to share all these material comfort?

Or would you rather to live in a small 3-room flat, comfortable and cosy, may own a small car and most importantly, there is someone who loves you and whom you love. You share your love in this small little love nest...?

What do you see in life? What is your goal? Long term goals and short term goals? Where do you see yourself in 5 years time?

I have no goals... I duno what I hope for in the future. I just wanna do what I wanna do now...

2007-09-19T18:37:00.000+08:00

Here comes the Answers!!!

This is the question for those who missed it....

The Answer:

Hope you enjoyed this.. =)

2007-09-18T12:50:00.000+08:00

Here are 3 puzzles to tease your mind!!

Instructions: For each of the 3 puzzles below, add a straight line to either side of the equation to make it equal....

Here goes.... I'll post the answer on Wednesday!!
*XVI represents 10, 5 and 1 respectively (Roman Numerals)

2007-09-18T01:04:00.000+08:00

Something for your eyes... Something to share with the banana lovers....

Choco Banana Pocky sticks!!! Tada!!!!!!!

My friend brought this back from Thailand and shared with us today. I was amazed to see the flavour and fascinated to see the cutie little monkey on the box!! Its so cute and tantalising.... YUMS!!!

2007-09-16T23:06:00.000+08:00

I was with Mich the other day and we were happily shopping around, letting ourselves sink into the air of luxury goods.... It was Coach, Lv, Loewe, Gucci, Marc Jacobs and Dior etc...

Yum!!

I must agree with Mich about the idea of "Materialism is the new religion". No matter how much I try to deter this ideology it seems to be creeping into our lives slowly and unknowingly.

I was asked, "Are you materialistic?" My first reaction was to say "NO" because the word materialistic is not a very nice word to be associated with. Its more or less like a stereotypical view of people who are materialistic to be good-for-nothing and probably gonna ruin the family name or something...

Ask me again, "What makes you sure that you are not materialistic? And hey! What's wrong with being materialistic?" Now, this get me thinking. True enough, what's wrong with being materialistic? There is nothing wrong to indulge yourself with luxury items so long as you have the means to do so. Afterall, luxury goods has become something to represent status and wealth more than then lux factor.

So, I admit I am a material girl. You should think that its nothing wrong for me to be materialistic but I tell you, there is a very wrong thing about me being materislistic. It is that I don't have the financial ability to do so! LOL!! Whatever it is, nothing is stopping me from all those materials of desire...

There are so much that this "new-religion" has got to offer.... I don't know about you, but I simply can't resist.

Tod's (above). Marc Jacobs (below).

Juicy Couture (below, So princessy but NOT very expensive though)

Enough said.

*****

I had a super heart racing over night mahjong on saturday night. I was losing so much I almost suffered a heart attack. I was rather scary to play with skilfull people but it was a fun game! I learnt loads! Haha! I was glad I was able to recover my losses and even won some money! Yeah!

Am I addicted to mahjong? I feel that I have loads of new found addictions.... I wonder why...

2007-09-15T01:47:00.000+08:00

Ahhhhhh Chooooo........!!! Snnifffff.......!!!

Enough said. I am still alive and kicking (only maybe a little less vigorous)

2007-09-11T22:45:00.000+08:00

There has been this puppy craze going on!! Which girl can resist a Shih Tzu??? Its SOOOOOO cute!! Its just like a soft toy which can move....

My first encounter with Shih Tzu made me unable to forget how cute the pup was... I was on my way out to meet the girls and there was this guy walking and playing with his Shih Tzu!! Somehow the pup keep following me and I pat the cutie for awhile and wanted to leave but it kept following me, until the owner had to carry it so that I can make my move...

The next day we saw another Shih Tzu!! Even cuter this time round.... It made me go ga-ga over it!! I also wanna have a cutie little Shih Tzu!!! We are all in love with Shih Tzu!!! Get a Shih Tzu PLeasssse!!!!

*****

I had straight hair for one day, today... Feels rather refreshing...

Why suddenly straight hair? Don't you hate straight hair?

Well, I went to trim my hair and decided to get the hair-dresser to blow it straight for me. And because I permed my hair, my hair will remain curly until I chemically treat it...

What's happening now is that I feel like doing something to my hair... Either do another perm (cos my hair is losing its curls) or to straighten it....

For you to compare......

Which do you prefer? Curls or Straight???

2007-09-10T13:31:00.000+08:00

*Ridiculously, a Cold War is in progress now*

Anyways....

HaPpY BiRtHdAYYY Jenna!!!!!!!!

2007-09-07T00:00:00.000+08:00

Whilst still in the blue-y mood, I heard over the radio about a girl who is going out with a man 20 years her senior... Well, I have nothing against the idea of going out with a man 20 years my senior but in her situation, she is not allowed to behave intimately with him in the public... The whole story sounds pretty dubious... Feels like its more of an affair than a relationship... I wonder...

I have no idea how I should comment on this. I personally feel that she should find out more about her current situation... Its when you know the whole picture that you can decide if you want to carry on with whatever you are doing, isn't it? Be it a true love relationship or an affair, she has the every right to follow what her heart believes... In this kinda situation, no matter what others around her tells her to do, I bet she already has her mind set... So whatever it is, carry out your plan (at least you know that you tried).

Talking about having a relationship with an older man, someone asked me if I would mind being with a man 10 years my senior. I answered "Yes." without even having to think. What's wrong with being with a man 10 years older? "10 is merely a number", I said. What's important is if both really love eachother and comfortable with eachother, right? Like what I always hear, "If you always miss someone and you really wanna spend alot of time with that someone and you don't know the reason why. You are probably in love."

With love so great and strong, what is the number 10?

In fact, I am so attracted to older men! I love wise & witty men who can speak well! And I must say that older men in general are more wise & witty.... Maybe this has got to do with experience... Older men also tend to give more TLC to the girls. No idea why this is so, but its quite true!! Another more practical (or rather, a materialistic factor) is that older men have greater financial strength, and I cant deny this can be very attractive! With money, many things are possible (I am not thinking about LV bags here... I am thinking of the Long-run!!)

I remembered once, me and the girls were talking about what kinda factors do we consider in finding a BF. One of which is age. As much as we ponder about what is the ideal age of the men, it always fall in the scale of more than 4. So, its not only me who finds the attaction in older men.

Furthermore, there is this phenomena that all of us should be aware. Women's value depreciates as they age while men's appreciate with time. If you noticed, famous celebrities like Tony Leung and Andy Lau gets more suave as the years past! Its amazing! Older men are simply irrestible! Only men with age and experience can be considered eligible bachelors (EBs). Those so-called EBs featured in magazines, who are 20 year-odd, NSFs and students are not EBs, they are just mere eye-candies.

Eligible bachelor value (EBV) is directly related to time. EBs are hard to find and I am sure girls will hang on tight if they think they found their EB. Yes, hold on tight to your EB girls!!! (Just be careful not to strangle them) Its works the same to a handful of sand, the tighter you try to hold it, more sand will just leak from your grip...

That's just a little 2 cents worth from me... Enjoy your weekend everyone!

2007-09-06T02:09:00.000+08:00

I am actually quite depressed today... I tried to make myself look happy, but its kinda killing me right now... Now I know its not a good idea to suppress your feelings...

Things are really not going my way...

First, its this mother-f****r who stole my clothes... I was thinking about what clothes to wear today and I remembered my two favourite pieces are gone, and I am left with nothing to wear... I dunno why but I just can't get over the fact that someone stole my clothes...

Secondly, its my bad results this sem...

And I got so many things to think about...

I felt so bad that I even wet my pillows.... HaiZz... And now I am feeling hot with tears again... What the hell is happening to me man!!!! Why am I so emo?? Period is not coming what...!!!

Whoever reading this now and thinking of consoling me, please don't! I appreciate everything but any consolation will probably make me feel worse and trigger me to tears again... Pretend that you didn't see this... Just let me be... I just wanna be alone...

2007-09-04T23:43:00.000+08:00

Wassup?

Nothing's up.. All's down....

Terrible... Not feeling good now... There could only be one reason for me to be so down now...

Yes! That's it...

So when you are feeling down.. Should you listen to slow sad songs or should you blast loud pieces?

Argh... No idea...

Wanted to blog... But sorry.. Totally no mood to continue further...

2007-09-04T01:34:00.000+08:00

Weekend.... Commex, Mahjong, Snapping Pics, Beer and the luxury of two men cooking lunch for me!!

Let the pics speak for itself....
Playing with camera.....

MAHJONG!!!!!!!

Wacky Duo Of the day...... *Drum rollSSsss* Laine and Geok!

Me......? Happy with Hoegarden and my favourite Tasty biscuit!!!

Two Men and a pack of mushrooms.....

Sweet corn that smells soOOooo Sweet!!!
I LOVE sweet corn!!

The cook in action!!! PRO!!

Where am I??? Stading around... trying not to salivate!!

A little bit of mozarella cheese........

And Viola!!!!!! Bon Appetit!!

2007-08-29T13:52:00.000+08:00

I still haven't gotten over the fact that some desperate idiot stole my fav clothes! I was so sad I couldn't eat anything, couldn't sleep or do anything the whole day (maybe its a good detox day). That idiot took away something that I probably could not get it again. I did not know how to express how sad I got to be.... Its just made me feel that no amount of money can buy the things I want anymore...

I was so tired I concussed a 13 hours straight... No toilet in between... Just quality beauty sleep...

Went to Womad last Saturday... And Yes! we were caught by the nightlife.sg camera... It is really different to take picture with a professional camera!! The pic is so sharp, great colours... The pic speaks for itself!!

2007-08-28T10:19:00.000+08:00

I couldn't sleep!! Angry and freaking sad now!

Some freak just stole my clothes!! One that I bought in from H&M in HK and I wore it once only!!!!!! And another from La Senza that I liked alot!! My heart aches now and I really feel like crying!!!!

Its not really about money, I just about how much I love those 2 pieces! Why they freaking hell stole that 2 piece? *Got so many other clothes there!!!* I like my H&M top so much that I couldn't bear to wear it and after the first time I wear it It went missing!!!

*Who the fuck stole my clothes!!*

I am freaking angry for goodness sake and I can't do anything!! Can I lodge a police report?

*Hope all the 7th month ghosts will go haunt the thief and may the person die in a horrible car crash and thus cannot get to wear my fav clothes like I do*

Sounds super duper childish but that's the only thing I can do now apart from crying to my pillow!!

2007-08-25T04:10:00.000+08:00

Just back from Timbre and had great fun with Goodfellas! *Goodfellas is officially my fav local band so far!* I am not sleeping yet and I gonna blog!!

This time round at Timbre, an ang moh (probably drunk, if not, high) tried to chat us up. Only laine made the sincere effort in entertaining him. I was smiling to him all the time, Mich gave the stern and you-are-a-liar kinda look and Geok trying every effort to make a not so awkward move....

We didnt understand why he would come and interrupt our game. We were having our SUDOKU challenge of who can complete the puzzle first (we didn't have a stake though). And that guy came along probably thinking why are these people playing sudoko (such and intellectual game) at a bar with loud live band music...

Whatever... We have our own fun and laughter in our own ways! LOL! And that guy, who either cant write or cant see properly, aka Chris called Mich Sudoku-girl!! LOL!! Its was kinda funny cos Mich took the longest time.. Haha!

Laine.. always trying to look different in photos.... Rather ugly though...

Blurry image.... by shaky hands... Miss Sing.. Misssing Misssing........

I received many comments about my previous post. Everyone who read it probably think that I am having either a super duper exciting time or bad sex. As usual and as expected, I will say that its all my imagination... Whether you believe me or not, it dosen't matter... If you are gonna let ur imagination run wild and make whatever impressions about me, Carry ON!!! (Just don't spoil my reputation) LOL!! Sometimes, its good to imagine, but if it gets too wild, try to restrain ok?

Its that time of the month now and yes!! I am getting a little emo... ( I swear, a little only) I was watching korean drama and I cried till my eyes swell... I hope I am not a cry-baby or something... So I was wondering does guys like their girl to cry (emo girls)? Are cry babies attractive?

I can think of some reasons why guys may like to have a cry-baby...

Cry-babies allow men to display their masculinity and machoism.... The kinda feeling that makes them feel that they can protect the girl.
When girls cry, they can take the opportunity to comfort them, console them.... Maybe hug them.... EAT TOFU!! LOL~!!

Errrrr... I cant think of anymore reasons... Hehe!!

Personally, I find cry babies rather irritating... They cry for every reasons... And they make me feel that they are just some desperate attention seekers.

Hmmmm... I probably am not a cry baby... I dun cry for any reasons... I just cry alot in shows... I just can't control the tears when good people die and people crying etc... Whatever! LOL!

Ok, Enough about cry babies... Lets get a little more serious... Don't you think our human body is very fascinating? Think about our 5 senses and all the organs link up to one another so perfectly! Waw!! Out of the 5 senses, I wanna comment on the sense of smell especially.

I am not sure if this is anything special or extraordinary. I tend link my memories and with smell. I was surprised of whatever that comes up to my mind when I smell something. I have a bottle of escada scent which I don't use at all now. I used to love that scent, but now, whenever I smell it, my heart hurts and it reminds me of unhappy past events. I will not use it, unless I am I am already totally immersed in the blues...

So, if you use a special frangrance regularly, you would probably pop up in my mind when someone uses the same fragrance walk pass me... Yes, I am a sensitive "smeller" I can smell the faintest detergent smell from your clothes to the fragrance that you wear to what you ate before hand... I can smell a fart and disgusting sewage from a thousand miles...

I love nice fragrances... I love people who wears Miracle, Gucci parfum II, Apple, Polo Black etc to walk pass me... Simply cos the air they bring with them gives me sweet flashbacks, brightens me up and make me happy!! Hehe!!

Muacks!!!

2007-08-21T01:09:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I wonder is sex an important factor in a relationship. There are some couples who does not engage in this love making process while some are simply addicted to eachother. So will bad sex ruin a relationship? Will good sex strenghten a relationship?

When thinking about sex, things like orgasm, heat, sweat, sexy, steamy, enjoyment should pop into our minds. However, what if things turn sour and all you can think of when we talk about the word "sex" is, routine, pain, chore, agony, blood, can't wait for it to be over...?

I am sure no one like the latter. Who will want this sacred love making process be something so horrible? I don't.

I gotta agree that sex has got to do with how much you love that person. The more you love that person, the better sex will be. Why do I say this? Imagine. If you do not love a person that much anymore, you wouldn't even have put in much effort into anything that has got to do with that person. Ie, doing things for the person, trying to please that person and make that person happy. Many things will be very much discounted. For example, you will not be able to kiss the person passionately like before cos in the first place, there could possibly be not much passion already. Being a good kisser is a mutual thing. Its just like the theory, "you need both hands to clap". If one kisses passionately with the other being like a dead fish, the passionate one will lose interest in being passionate thus killing the atmosphere or even ruining what you call foreplay.

Take into consideration if you have really bad sex in you relationship with all other elements (elements meaning emotional support etc) being held constant, shouldn't sex be a considering factor? Are you willing to put up with all the painful sex for the rest of your life? **PLEASE SAY NO!!** Do something, be it talking about it or even go find yourself a better someone, don't suffer in silence!! Sex gotta be pleasurable!!

What if you have a few choices and found out that Choice A gives you good emotional support and Choice B makes good love? Slap yourself for being a two-timer and let go of both cos you are not worth it at all. Haha~! Sorry for being mean but I believe in monogamy and I am sure you can find someone who can make good love and give you good emotional support at the same time.

Back to the question, will bad sex ruin a relationship?
Most of the time, relationships turn bland or sour because of arguments, differences, emotions etc. Such arguments, differences and emotions may weaken the bond between couples which may result in good sex turning into bad sex. In another words, bad sex are excuses people give when there is an existing problem in a relationship. Those existing problems are problems I regard as what people refuse to acknowledge. There is no such thing as bad sex partner, its a matter of willingness, bond and feelings.

With great sex, great love and great bond, that couple is formidable. Bad sex, no love and weak bond, just a little nudge will break the relationship.

Size doesn't matter, its all about love. Love is something you can't deny, you can try shove it aside but it will not go missing henceforth. Never hide your love for someone. Love is meant to be shown. Love conquers all!!

I wonder if I am making sense... but I am tired already...

Here are some yummy colours to brighten up this black and white blog...

2007-08-17T00:34:00.000+08:00

Today is not exactly adventurous in fact a boring day. Not exactly activity-less but the fact that the day is spent without much purpose and aim makes me bored.

Hear me out. It may seem activity packed, but what I am going to mention is definitely not something I enjoy doing.

Today started out quite early. About 9.45am, my mum stomped into my room and try to wake me up to go to my grandma's house cos today we gotta make offerings. It was raining outside and I am warmed under the blanket and its was totally conducive to sleep in!! She persistently tried to wake me up. She told me she was going to buy roasted duck and from her expressions I can tell that she was expecting me get ready by the time she comes back. But I didn't care much about her and screamed, " I don't wanna go already!!"

She left the house.

In about 15 minutes time, I heard the twinkling of the keys at the gate... And almost immediate I heard her yelled again... I swear, my face was as black as charcoal!! Cos its one of the rare mornings that there is no drilling sounds from the construction downstairs and its a freaking raining!! She gotta do this to me!

Yes, definitely. As a filial daughter, I woke up and showered and guess what, she was like standing around and make sure that I was doing my stuff promptly. I felt totally pressured but I have a bad habit, the more people try to hurry me, somehow the slower I get.

So she was nagging at me... Trying to make me double up... In the midst of everything I forgot so many things... I forgot my pill, I forgot my eyelash tonic, I forgot my perfume, I forgot my eyebrow pencil, I forgot my watch. *sounds pretty Bimbotic* I just grabbed my handphone and my unpacked bag and left the house. I didn't even fold my blanket and everything was in a mess.

So we had many plastic bags to handle. It was raining. And suddenly the taxis seemed to have disappeared! *Irritated* I should have been enjoying my beauty sleep.

Reached the destination. There is nothing for me to do. I ended up watching some channel 8 repeated telecast of some serial on the new Samsung LCD tv. I ended up trying to figure out the controller as my uncle asked me to tune the brightness and contrast etc. Things got really boring and I ended up sleeping (as usual).

Moments later people try to wake me up for BRUNCH. I was SOOOOOOO hungry. I had noodles, curry chicken, Roasted meat, duck had 2 of my favourite Ang Ku Kuey. Sounds like a Pig! After gobbling down those stuff, I felt sleepy so I made myself coffee. 3in1 coffee mix was really hard to find in that house.

The fact that diabetes runs in my family, the coffee mix is "less sugar". I made it with one eyebrow raised thinking of how to dispose it discreetly if its horrid. It tasted rather bitter initially but after awhile, I began to love it. However, I could not savour the taste slowly and had to gobble it down my throat cos my auntie gonna send us back...

We did not go home empty handed. We went home with a mini hi-fi set! Brand New! I am contemplating to putting it in my room cos its rather cool cos I can link it to my PC and it can play the song from my PC! Wheee~!!

It was a struggle carrying that thing back and it got me all exhausted. So, it was sleeping time again....

Sleepppp.....

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Snooozzeeeee.....

Until it was 5 plus then I gotta get ready for work.... Don't you think I had an exciting day? (I am being sarcastic if you don't get it)

2007-08-15T00:38:00.000+08:00

I was in the train just now... And I was reminded of something...

I cannot be more serious about it than now! I am dying and yearning for that something and I can't believe I can resist it till now.

Yes! Its that white PSP! Every Tom, Dick and Harry, Ah Lian and Ah Huay are having it and how can I not be part of them? I am so desperate to find an excuse for myself to buy it that I am comtemplating to spoil my mp3 player. Yes! That's bad! That's how bad I want it!

Ok~! I can hear those nagging already. "You sure u need it?" "Aiya, save money la! Spend spend spend!"

Fine!! I don't need a PSP, I WANT IT!!

I know I am on a super duper budget deficit and I owe loansharks loads of money but its simply too irresistable!!

I am dying!! I am already thinking how am I going to pamper my future white PSP with accessories and protectors already! I am anticipating the excitement of discovering a brand new gadget!

Can't you sense my dying desire for it?

2007-08-13T14:59:00.001+08:00

Been loads of late nights... Loads of drinks... Loads of madness...

Here goes some pics....

Velvet's 13th birthday party... (free flow till 12 mn)